I'm a broken person. I want a relationship but I push people away. I have trust issues and I'm working on them. It's not working. I'm constantly thinking the worst. Is he cheating? I know he isn't but in my mind he is. This is why I end up pushing people away. Good guys. I can't help it. It's something I just do. I tried talking about it with a guy I've been talking to. He's like I don't know what to say. And that cheating isn't his style. Wtf does that mean?
This guy is also making sure we're right for eachother. Like I might find something about him I won't like and won't want to be together forever. And this is what set me off to think he doesn't wanna be with me. That he's found someone else or that he just doesn't like me.
I mean if I didn't think it wouldn't work out. I wouldn't have introduced him to my daughter. After that conversation I'm having second thoughts. And questioning everything. I can't have you be apart of my daughters life if you might not be a forever person. I can't have another guy walk out on her. I don't want to find out a year or more down the road that we aren't going to make it as a couple then have you leave. How do I explain that to her?
I guess I'm meant to be single...I know they day the right person will come along when I'm not looking. It hasn't happened yet and I don't think it will...